I've been mulling over this post for a many, many days now.
I had intended to begin this new 'blogging' year with this post.
I would relate to you my utter joy at discovering and being a part of this online community in the previous months, and express my dreams and desires for the coming year.
It would be honest, inspiring...and well, on time.
In the time it has taken for me to find these words - my intentions for 2013 - my life has been turned on its head. These 'resolutions' (for lack of a better word) I have been conjuring seem trivial compared to the reality of my current situation. I am still processing all that has happened in the past week, the crazy, unexpected, suddenness of it all, and am now nervously paving the way of my future.
I don't want to delve too deep into it all, yet I feel in sharing this news here I may find comfort and healing - okay, here goes...I was informed this week that my job position had been made redundant.
It is surreal even writing this. It is a fresh wound and I am still coming to terms with this news. It's strange to think that 3 days ago I was a happily employed twenty-something - taking things for granted and dreaming of what I want, rather than being gracious for the simple joys in my life.
In an already struggling economy the coming months are sure to be testing for us (I was the major wage earner in our household) yet I know that this is hurdle we can overcome.
My mind is filled with doubt, anticipation and fear. I feel as if I have failed, although I know there's nothing that could be done. It's not that I am unwanted - far from it, I'm told - but that I was given up for the sake of another.
I am unsure of the road ahead, all I can be certain of is that I will succeed...eventually.
I will still accomplish my desires for this year, more often than not I will do so quietly, perhaps at time I will share them here, once the time is right. All I can say right now is that this year will be one of change - for the better - in myself and my life. I...we, will live simply and purposefully.
I will find the opportunity within this difficult period of our life.
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I don't want this to be a pitty-party for me or a 'look how difficult my life is' post. That's not my intention. I feel that this is a safe place for me to share what's on my mind and heart, with you, and I will continue to do so. I have overcome more heartbreak than this - I will do it again.
Picking myself up and dusting myself off.
Sorry for the word heavy post. x
That sucks. I hope that something turns up very quickly and makes this a blessing in disguise.
ReplyDeleteThere's nothing wrong with needing an outlet, it's not a pity party losing your job is a big deal.
Thank you for being a 'listening ear' and a caring receiver, Lila.
DeleteLovely to meet you :)
Sar x
Lady, thats a hard blow- In SO many ways including financial but not limited to.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what you do for a job but I have a feeling that there is something right around the corner.
xo em
Bless you, lady. Bless ya, bless ya, bless ya!
DeleteThank you for such kindness and encouragement - it really means the world.
Sar xx
Sarah I am blessed by you sharing this. I will pray God brings you and your family through this only to find something much better! Loving your blog...new follower! :)
ReplyDeleteHi Courtney - welcome and lovely to meet you.
DeleteThank you for your prays and kind thoughts - such a blessing.
Sar x
well my dear that stings!...I just spent the past 30 mins reading your blog...your a sweet smart cookie....good things will come. thanks for popping by my little corner...very pleased that we have virtually met.
ReplyDeletehope you are kind to yourself this weekend.
Allison x
Thanks for popping by, Allison, and for your sweet thoughts.
DeleteWishing you and your beautiful family a lovely weekend too!
Sar xx
I'm so sorry to hear that Sarah.... must be very hard to process at the moment.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you!
Ronnie xo
Thank you so much, Ronnie. You thoughts are a blessing.
DeleteSar xx