Picking Up & Dusting Off

I've been mulling over this post for a many, many days now.
I had intended to begin this new 'blogging' year with this post.
I would relate to you my utter joy at discovering and being a part of this online community in the previous months, and express my dreams and desires for the coming year.

It would be honest, inspiring...and well, on time.

In the time it has taken for me to find these words - my intentions for 2013 - my life has been turned on its head. These 'resolutions' (for lack of a better word) I have been conjuring seem trivial compared to the reality of my current situation. I am still processing all that has happened in the past week, the crazy, unexpected, suddenness of it all, and am now nervously paving the way of my future.

I don't want to delve too deep into it all, yet I feel in sharing this news here I may find comfort and healing - okay, here goes...I was informed this week that my job position had been made redundant.
It is surreal even writing this. It is a fresh wound and I am still coming to terms with this news. It's strange to think that 3 days ago I was a happily employed twenty-something - taking things for granted and dreaming of what I want, rather than being gracious for the simple joys in my life.
In an already struggling economy the coming months are sure to be testing for us (I was the major wage earner in our household) yet I know that this is hurdle we can overcome.
My mind is filled with doubt, anticipation and fear. I feel as if I have failed, although I know there's nothing that could be done. It's not that I am unwanted - far from it, I'm told - but that I was given up for the sake of another. 

I am unsure of the road ahead, all I can be certain of is that I will succeed...eventually.
I will still accomplish my desires for this year, more often than not I will do so quietly, perhaps at time I will share them here, once the time is right. All I can say right now is that this year will be one of change - for the better - in myself and my life. I...we, will live simply and purposefully.  

I will find the opportunity within this difficult period of our life.

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I don't want this to be a pitty-party for me or a 'look how difficult my life is' post. That's not my intention. I feel that this is a safe place for me to share what's on my mind and heart, with you, and I will continue to do so. I have overcome more heartbreak than this - I will do it again. 

Picking myself up and dusting myself off. 

Sorry for the word heavy post. x